I went to the east coast in the energy between August and September. I think the physical change in location must have shaken loose the last of whatever it was my spirit had instructed me to let go of. I had some of the deepest Revelations of my life on this trip. Trip! What a trip. I wrote this on the plane ride home. I read it to remind myself what I'm doing now. This work, this website and all of the content I am creating is from this frequency. Here...ღ´¨)
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(¸.•´ (¸.•` I don't care about trying to do anything or be anything anymore. I don't. I do not care. Does that alarm you? What's the first thought you have when you read that? When you hear me say it in your minds ear?
I simply do not care. I have no concern for what business I can create, what entrepreneurial endeavor I can pursue, what certificate or program I can join to learn more about ways to serve others and heal, teach, enhance, educate, enlighten...I have no desire to pay for another degree, train with another expert or involve myself in seeking anything else that is adjacent to the infinite consciousness that I already have access to in my own meditation, contemplation and mindful presence. I have no use for anything that isn't already attracted into my auric field. I have no need to seek more than what I'm already, organically aligned with because everything I need just comes to me as a reflection, a magnetic attraction of me being me.
I have let go. I found an escape hatch from the hamster wheel and exited the cage. And you know what? For the first time in my life I feel free to just be me. Everything I decide to do ... Me. Every impulse to act... Me. Every creative inspiration ... Me. Anywhere I go, because of Me.
Something else has changed tho. Me isn't the same as I used to be. When I had all of those attachments to being a certain way, working on certain things, trying really hard to "make it happen" I was suffering every day. I was fighting against what is. I couldn't accept the truth of Life or myself as it truly, authentically is. I was blinded by ego, pain body, collective consciousness, fear, doubt. I was domesticated. I couldn't see it and I couldn't get happy or feel good. Not really.
I don't know where I'll go from here. All of this is new. I know everyday, the only option I have is to just be me. It's the only option I need. My daily practice is to understand with more clarity what that really means. Who I am is ultimately the driver of what I do. Expression of my self, my gifts and talents, my creativity and what I enjoy happens regardless of "what I do".
From now on, everything I do is about playing with my energy, experimenting with frequency, creating with the alchemy of words.
I am Crystal. That is all.